the frosted webs in snow

winters growing slowly, yes winters growing cold, theres snow thats falling slowly, and slowly's getting old. i've torn apart my heart and this is what i've found, it is now as cold, as the snow that's on the ground.
and the webs that hang in shadows, the webs that hang in night, are sitting there, there frosted but somehow it feels right,
the frosted webs, the moonlight night, i stand in wonder at the sight,
it used to be, you and me, now all i'm left with is the frosted webs in snow..
the frosted webs in the snow, you killed me now. why won't they let go
it holds me there, till all the blood is gone, the frosted webs in snow, why can't i move on.
i seem very very cold, the frost has got me, getting deeper deeper still these webs about me.
here i am for all to see, held up so gently, here i am and here i'll be the frosted webs have got me.
when summer comes i'll still be here, unable to move, unable to breathe. maybe by then i'll be warm in sunlit days, maybe then i'll be sure about my worldly ways, untill then all i can do, is sit here waiting, until the spider comes that's you, oh how aggrivating
come to suck the life out from me, the deed has been done, you've already won



anyways

and the beef sandwich shall rise up.

so yah, here i am again, ummm something odd happened to me today, something that i can say really only has happened like 4 times in my life. and that is someone appologized to me, and i think they might have actually meant it. i was kinda shocked and had no idea what to do, i'm used to the idea that people are jerks, i mean seriously after the fall it just makes sense. but while i didn't know what to say, know that it means something, thank you.... yah that's all i really have to say.

and so once again i shouldn't get my hopes up.

hello one and all.. tonight i was having a wonderful night, i had poetry flowing through my body like you wouldn't believe, i was dancing with glory to God without hindrance in the snow shouting his name. but i got my hopes up once again. for a few weeks now i've had my eye on someone, and i know i screwed up on a few things recently, but she didn't know how i felt doesn't even know what i've done. but now she's in a relationship.... and once again i learn that getting my hopes up only leads to them being destroyed. i don't feel any different towards her, hey i'm happy for her for finding someone, she didn't know, how could she. but now here i am again all alone and in pain. once again reliving all of my heartbreaks. is it a wonder carly why i don't wish to love anymore? is it really? anyways peace

should i go the hallucinations?

well i ran into my ol bud alan today, he says his record for no sleep is five days, but he also said that he started hallucinating when he did that, i'm almost tempted to try doin that up, but no. i have been thrown off already by that. went randomly to eston today, frick i don't wanna talk to much today, people kept askin if i was ticked off. or something like that, not really i donno, i just prefer blocking some stuff out sometimes, it just makes things alot easier, i don't care what i say, even though i realize i run my mouth off alot, anyways whatever. i gonna go bed now