good day to anyone that may or may not be reading this blog, as for if you are or aren't either way you are still here and therefore subject to my ramblings, i'm not sure if i mentioned it in my last blog, but i'm now 19 and with that in this place that i live there are all sorts of new possibilities, well actually just one really that opens up a buncha doors... i shall say this... beer sucks, anyways, it's come to my attention, as it shall now come to yours that i am no longer single, WOOHOO for me. to bad for any ladies reading this thing, sorry ladies, guess you'll have to settle for the other guy. oh well, just thought i'd randomly come and post cause i havn't in a while. i leave with this. they say money is a neccesary evil, i say it's evil that makes money neccesary.

the lack of thought

well well well, i'm back here in the land of the internet and i figures hey i might as well write something up, i don't know what though therefore the lack of thought, last night i was having a conversation with someone and for some reason we got onto the topic of philosophy, which personally i describe as the lack of straight line thought which fortunately is something that i accel at seeing as my mind either jumps around or i really don't know what the duce i'm talking about so i just keep on yammering on about something or other until the person i'm talking to can't tell heads from tails,. speaking of heads from tails i wander what coin coined that phrase. like seriously when you flip a coin it's HEADS OR TAILS, theres a head on the coin most of the time sure, but what the butt coin has a tail of any description sure a nickel has a beaver, which has a tail sure. but i'm quite sure it's an american phrase to begin with. anyways i'm to hungry right now to continue writing so i think that i will probably just go get some food. talk to you all later.... or eat least write something that someone somewhere might read once upon a time

INsatisfaction

sigh, normally i'm more than satisfied with my regular choice of car, the 80's style vw jettas, but omygosh, i think the water pump broke on me, dangbdang BDANG. anyways, once again i am at work, it seems to be more or less what i do, i'd like to give a shout out to sean, man rock on, make me laugh, and as usual i do stupid things, lol, i still find it funny what you told me bout bri, but rockin out was fun, met many peoples. lol, i def probly wouldn't have called that one girl if you hadn't said go for it man... well i might have, lol. anyways, friday me and sean went to a concert, i only remember friday night fistfight and broken ambulance, but i do remember the security guard started givin me and others crap bout moshing, so i distracted him outside, AND NO ONE REALIZED HE WAS GONE, sigh, here i go outa my way so people can get crazy and i come back in and everyone's just standing around. anyways, was sposed to go to a real killer concert on saturday, but they sold out like an hour before we got there, so me and sean just bumbed around town for a bit, ruckers, boston legal, lol, aight time, 1031 tickets from ruckers, add that to what we have from last time, lol eventually we're gonna get like an ipod or something like that, but it will take many visits, even if the games are broken lol, (FREE TICKETS) anyways, today i discovered what the smell coming from the van was, thank you very much mother, those steamed carrots and colliflower you left in the van were loverly..... now the van is home to two air fresheners, and a can of febreeze. AND THE OFFICE STILL SMELLS, mary (who is deaf) didn't hear me say what i had discovered and she was on the other side of the wearhouse and she proclaimed... WHAT'S THAT SMELL? once again, insatisfied, anyways, i'm gonna head er now, hugz and tugz to all yall.,... wait, maybe forget the tugz

i'm not amused..... WTC?

k i just realized something when someone says "i'm not amused" basically they are saying that i'm not not thinking about something or other, which means they're thinking about it, why would one say that i mean like seriously theres like busting someone bubble right there, bugger non amusers, honestly if i were to count all the times that i've been amused honestly i havn't been thinking about anything half of my concious life, anyways on another thought, i tend to be the kind of person who lives and learns by mistakes, the thing is, it's not really a good thing that i know so much then 8-) DANG lotta mistakes boys and girl, and even some of you ladies and gentlemen out there. speaking of mistakes, i never really finished the post from the other day, long story short, i doubt anything else is gonna happen with her there, but i shure wouldn't want to go on with life without actual love. anyways, i'm about wrapped up here so all yall have a good day, i'm off to finsih a book and maybe just blow some stuff up, haven't decided yet, OH by the way, i need to like get ideas for what to blow up on my birthday, chances are if you're reading this you know me, so gimme some friggen ideas of stuff to blow up on my birthday.
TA

hey, it's me again, for whoever has read the blog... or is reading it, thanks i spose for for showing some sort of interest. i shall talk a bit bout my past, or my future i spose, i really donno where either has been or where it's going, i want love, not just a one night stand or something like that, the feelings between two people when they think they're gonna spend the rest of their life together. i've had it before, or at least I had felt that way, then it all fell apart... i miss her, we've both done stuff in between and some people are so glad that i'm no longer with her... but i miss her, i dont even know if she feels the same way.. i still have her little notes to me in my wallet, lol, i have a picture that her god son took of her and me stealing a kiss... lol that crafty lil kid, and i still have a hole where she used to be, i;m not sure what i want exactly anymore, closure, to move on into the future... or to visit the past. In the words of some novel i was forced to read, the river flows both ways, the past and the present are always flowing, a new experience in life could cause you to look at the old on and look on it in an entirely different way, what i did a few weekends ago made me do just that, i looked at what i once knew and it was different, time had changed, memories, and the feelings came back as strong as ever like a current held back at a dam all of a sudden being let free.
Sigh, on a lighter note, i miss my old teacher mel, him pushing my limits of the english language, expanding my understanding of such things as this river, or just a kid brought up by crows, nature vs nurture, or even choice. it's my choice here ladies and gentlemen, i've been consumed by the drought for so long, but now the dam has burst and i'm drowning in the repercussions, i choose to either leave the waters and search for dry land, or i can wallow in the depths.... i wish to wallow for a while.

Goodbye again to your beautiful smile, your lips, your mouth, your eyes.
goodbye to the times, i cant tell you the truth, but i can't live with my lies.
i don't know whats which or where to begin,
but i know both our pasts are covered with sin.
The future is murky and the past still unclear and thoughts of you daunting my dreams
i'm searching my feelings i'm searching the world and i fear i don't know what it means.
forgive me my lover, my unfavored end, my liar, my longing, my friend
as long as i'm living i will go on sinning, it's my means to disposable end.
The night i told you i love you i still remember, a slip of tongue, more ways than one.
i remember what you said... it wasn't the same as me, yet.... but it soon was.

anyways, that's actually all i got for right now. sorry. anyways, i should be working right now but the vehicle is frozen. hugz and tugz for all yall.... wait.... no tugz

This is my blog...

So... this is a blog, almost would have thought something fancier, but alas, it does seem rather straight forward. in case you have an extensive vocabulary and knowledge of history, you know that my blog is named the tax, more thoroughly it was a roman tax instated every 15 years. The timing of the tax has nothing to do with the name of my blog but rather the idea of the word tax itself, to tax ones self may imply that he has pushed himself to some limit or another (or herself to any women whom may be readying this) which is what i've done in recent history... hmmm recent history, maybe save that one for later, now also tax can be used as something taxing ones thoughts now this is the use of it here, i shall be taxing your thoughts, either with sheer stupidity or maybe i shall actually say something that makes you think.... how ironic is it that something that plagues your thoughts is taxes but plagues tax your thoughts... anyways. i may or may not be able to keep this blog updated very regularly, but when it is i hope you enjoy a read... if anyone does indeed read this thing.
I drive for a living, and make sure that there is new inventory in stores, i get alot of time to think about things when i'm on the road. i hope you will join me in pondering some afterthoughts.