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so anyways, i had another day of work today, and it's raining/snowing/sunny out today, me and a co-worker decided to see who was faster in a sprint, i wasn't sure but he was bein cocky so we put money on it, midway through the race i lost my footing, i bit it pretty hard i have cuts onmy hand elbow and hip, along with a really nast bruise on my hip, and i lost the money to boot, anyways, make friends of the decrepid

anyways 2.

Well anyways, i'm not sure if i've called one of my other blogs that yet or not so i'm just callin it number two. sigh by popular demand and yes vader i mean you again, lol you're popular and demanding :P, i have decided to write on here again although i seriously think you're the only one who reads this drivel. work was indeed bareable today, lol actually many parts of it made me laugh even though i have some sort of head cold that is starting to really annoy me, so.... devon showed me his pecker at work the other day and tried to jack one of my knives so i threatened him with the other one, almost needless to say he ran outside put his pecker away and gave me back my knife, apparently courtney tried makin out with cole, lol, WHORE, anyways, seriously, 16 years old, nine guys, and now you're after two at the same time.... i thinks i summed it up with whore a few lines earlier. me i'm doin alrigt, stupid head cold, ummm women are stupid, but no... i'm not gay, but hey, can't live without women, anyways i think i'm gonna go eat some pizza,

working works.... to destroy mankind

well alrighty then, vader you get your wish, i have decided to write another blog, although about what i'm not entirely sure, i been workin my arse off lately, i wake up at like noon and do my university course for a while, normally i just take a quiz a day but i could probably do several of them in an hour and still have plenty of time to bugger around before work, ah yes and work, at working for only a week i already have a key and a code for the alarm system, i get to close out the store, this would be alright except for the fact that i work with idiots, lyne, you're a pain in the arse, kirsten, i'm right here, say it to me, don't leave a letter for the manager, and next arse hole to put something in my drink i'm opening your mouth and shoving it down your throat. sigh, and honestly if stuff keeps not adding up i'm killing someone, denton so far you're top on the list of people who will go when i shnap, anyways, so i'm dating again, oh lol i'm not even sure my blog told you about my last break up, tiara dumped me, and now i'm dating her best friend, i'm not entirely sure how happy she is about that, either one, but oh wells, i'm happy so be it, i need to get myself a new car, i can barely win a race against a peice o turd tempo, like sure i get it that i get alot more gas milage, but still, i want like a second car that will haul them, anyways i think that's all for a blog for now,

does she see the way i look at her? when she turns away... i can't help but wonder what she's thinking about, but i know what i'm thinking... i'm thinking how can i be so lucky, how can i have found someone that i care for, and she cares back... i love the feeling of just being around her, no words have to be said. what i say i will because i mean it, i don't want to lie... she makes me so happy. i'm content in the quiet, i know i'm not alone, i know there is a possibility, that i will never be that way again... i hope i'm not. She loves me now, and i hope she always will. but one other thing i know is, that i don't want to hurt her, but i know that i could, so easily, just push to far and there's no turning back, what's done is done... i don't want to do that, i don't want to be sorry for things not yet done, i don't want to hurt you with what i've become. part of this world has shown me it's hand and there's life without love and i don't understand, how people say that they love you and then walk away, they say they won't leave you, with nothing to say. well that's not my story, no more, accidents. i'll try not to leave you behind in the dust, if i myself am ahead of myself just tell me, i'll come brush off the dirt and grime......
oks, so i donno where that one was going, but now i want to just write totally random, that last one actually had some meaning. the next one just angst

tear into me oh darkness obscene you can't have seen all of me yet, you're as dark as my eyes and overcast skies the dust in the clouds at sunset. here i am a hole, so deep, the darkness spreads as people speak, the lies they spread swallow whole, with goal, deception and lies.
They lay on the street they say that you're dead they just want to know, they want in your head, they want you to feel the hate and dispair they want you to feel like you shouldn't care, if you're down and your dead and you stare at the skies, they all have a goal, deception and lies.
The stars they don't care, such a small speck of dirt, you're nothing and no one, and yet you still hurt. you think that you're actually important to things, but hearing the truth sometimes only stings. you're more important than dirt, than filth, and than flies. but these all have one goal, deception and lies.
To tell you that life is just here and just now, the truth is, is nothing, and that's all, just somehow. To make you think that this is the end when really it's just all we know for now. but there's more, i promise you, i promise the sky, that no more deception, but truth, when we die.


anyways, both of those just first time through, rough draft, i haven't even read them yet, feedback welcome. love you tiara if you're reading this.

morning or night, i donno, don't care

Hello dr. mike... HELLO EVERYBODY. it's me here, donno who you are there, but welcome.
as you all may or many may not know my girlfriend has gone to bolivia for a month, this leaves me alone... bite me. lol the last few days have been long and... well relativly fun i guess, there has been alot of rockband being played and i'm actually getting at least kind of good at it, which i suppose is ok except for the fact that i had once said anyone who's good at that game has no life... i seem to have lost my life this weekend... someone help me find it. YOU THERE, THE FAT ONE IN ONTARIO... HAVE YOU SEEN MY LIFE? anyways. sorry fat man, i didn't mean to poke fun... but i do wish i could poke your belly. so i'm not sure if it's morning or night and i donno what time it is in bolivia, but if you're reading this hun, i love you. email me. anyways about the time think, i think the time on this compuer is out by an hour but i don't know in what direction, so it's either morning or night, and i donno, it's pretty stupid and i know i said i didn't care but it's kinda driving me a bit weird, anyways i'm out hugz all yall scrall yall

ladies and gentlemen, i've returned to love.

Well hello ladies and gentlemen, or whoever the duce happens to be reading this blog... whoever you are.... so be it. Anyways, as you may or may not know i had an interesting break up a while back, things were going oh fine and dandy cept for one thing, drama seems to follow this girl. so i called it off, wasn't easy and honestly i didn't think i would settle down again after, i went the other way for a bit, i wasn't looking for a long term relationship anymore heck i wasn't even looking for a relationship. I ended up destroying myself, to anyone who's been there before, or is even there right now, it may seem like fun at the time, but in the end you have my deepest sympathies.
I then went to a friends birthday party, well actually her brother invited me, he asked me to come because otherwise he would be the only guy, this being an 18th birthday party for a girl... I went, i didn't know what i would find, i couldn't have known, because i found her... Hun if you're reading this, i love you. In all honesty though when i first met you i had no clue that we would grow into something, some people say they know right away, the love at first sight, it wasn't this with you.
Some people say "hey i don't think it's going to work, she's so quiet and you're... well you're not." and to you i say.... bite me? yes i think bite me will work, you have no understanding of what happens between us, you ask oooh how far have you gotten?... did your mother teach you no manners at all? are you really just that shallow? no i know you better than that, but you really do seem like a complete dolt sometimes.
Back to you Hun, the first time you messaged me i was intruiged here was this girl who had said like two words the whole night all of a sudden messaging me on facebook, well that got me interested because at first i just thought you were shy, but here you had taken the chance and looked me up, added me, and talked to me, during the next while it was like that, day in and day out, not a word in person, and it doesn't matter, you're thoughts will still get through.. I love you, and i wouldn't have it any other way. no matter what others think

You've helped me return to love, to my better self, not the one who doesn't care, who won't respect you, Thank you.
i feel like writing, but i don't think the blogs are yet ready for my writing, or wait no that the writing is ready for the blogs yes that would be it. fair well to all for now

good day to anyone that may or may not be reading this blog, as for if you are or aren't either way you are still here and therefore subject to my ramblings, i'm not sure if i mentioned it in my last blog, but i'm now 19 and with that in this place that i live there are all sorts of new possibilities, well actually just one really that opens up a buncha doors... i shall say this... beer sucks, anyways, it's come to my attention, as it shall now come to yours that i am no longer single, WOOHOO for me. to bad for any ladies reading this thing, sorry ladies, guess you'll have to settle for the other guy. oh well, just thought i'd randomly come and post cause i havn't in a while. i leave with this. they say money is a neccesary evil, i say it's evil that makes money neccesary.